Last night, within the span of less than two hours, three things happened that have kind of been weighing on my mind all day. So here goes....
A really good friend of mine got engaged recently, and I had a long drive, so I called her and asked for the down-low on what happened. The whole thing happened pretty fast and the Lord seems to be putting everything into place, and I am VERY excited for D+E. What I can't get out of my mind is what seemed to seal the deal for her: "driving in his truck and he was talking about the church being split and the drama, etc., and about his passion for the people, and I knew right then I wanted to marry him." Not a direct quote, but close. I want a passion for Christ and for the gospel and for sharing it and living it with every person I come into contact with. What I don't want is to be a "good person" or to just follow some list of religious or moral guidelines of how someone should act if they want to feel good about themselves and be admired in a weekly meeting with well-dressed someones who pretend to have everything together. I want to be transformed: mind, heart, and soul by the grace and mercy and love of God demonstrated through the incarnation, life, death, and resurrection of Jesus Christ. And if ever a girl falls in love with me, I want it to be because of Christ living through me and who He makes me to be, not because I have a good job or am a nice guy or whatever. I've got a way to go to be the man that the girl I want will want.
Next, I got to the end of my drive and was catching up on this week's episode of How I Met Your Mother. Basic plot is at the funeral for one character's father and the last words and moments we might share with people we love. Very interesting that right when the character has a moment of yelling out at God and questioning how He operates, I found out that a friend from junior college has recently passed away, very suddenly. Now, I don't know God's specific purpose in how He gives and directs and takes individual lives, and questioning why wasn't what weighed on my heart. I believe that the one true God is good, and has a purpose and plan in all things, and while I don't understand it, He is faithful and trustworthy and glorious.
What I did think so much about is that I do not know what tomorrow, or even the next few minutes or hours, will bring. I do know that there are a LOT of people who have played important roles in my life, some big, some small. Some people I've known most of my life, some for just a few years, and some are relatively new friends. Some were teachers, some examples, some listeners, some advisers, some made me laugh, some encouraged, and others made me see life and Christ and others in a truer way. So I've got a lot of thank-you's to say. So I'll be working on that in the days and weeks to come.
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